Monday, April 25, 2011

癌病房


曾有一位英國學者,做過一項著名研究,他在診室一角,觀察醫生告訴病者「化驗報告證實你感染愛滋病」時,病者的反應與表情。很多人呆了一呆,然後說:「我沒有濫交。」(這是艾瑞克上課時講的,同學,我無聽錯吧。)

家裡的中醫師,在醫院癌症診室實習,也觀察過醫生告訴病者「你證實患癌」時的表情,你以為會呼天搶地,痛哭失聲?結果是,很多人面色一沉,一路無話,只聽醫囑,不斷點頭,最後離開病房。

這位醫師說,每個人一生中,都應該抽時間到醫院的癌症病房,觀察實習幾日。

看著很多人,一生勞碌,為了名利與金錢,營營役役,無止境的工作,無時間休息,無時間與家人相處,又從沒有想清楚,這一切是為了什麼。然後癌症報告出來,才知道生命即將終結,一切帶不走,又知道失去太多,沒有好好活過,路已到盡頭。

痛苦也是難免的,到某個日子,中藥西藥法寶盡出,仍不能止痛,苟延殘喘,才嚥下最後一口氣。看見這種苦,就明白天地不仁,不要痴心妄想你是一個什麼受祝福的人。

較幸運的,一輪掙扎後,叫作痊癒了,癌症總有復發的可能,在等待噩運重臨的幾年間,總算偷得浮生,安靜地回望與思索,好好與家人珍惜每段日子。

當然,最幸運的,是旁觀而不需要親歷;不用出生入死,而能了結生死。

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9 comments:

  1. //看著很多人,一生勞碌,為了名利與金錢,營營役役,無止境的工作,無時間休息,無時間與家人相處,又從沒有想清楚,這一切是為了什麼。//

    - 我有幾個這樣的朋友,我有時禁不住想像他們突然發覺身體有大毛病時會後悔現在這樣生活(當然不想他們真的有重病)。

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  2. 在寧養病房工作,感受至深。

    明知做了多少,也未必可以紓緩病人的病情,連病人自己都知道,進了來,未必再可以逃出去。

    做的事情有白費嗎?我不知道。但逼著自己每天都問這樣的問題,或許是另一形式的折磨。

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  3. 老套一句,錢,夠用就好。活得有如沒有明天,不要浪費時間。

    Megan: 了結生死很難,就算以為自己能夠,到時候才會發現自己道行很淺。就是這樣啊.....

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  4. you were right about what 艾瑞克 said. was he mentioning about social stigma? but i guess the weight of social stigma means little when it comes to life and death.
    i can't help thinking it seems cruel to watch how one respond, it's like consuming others' pain.

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  5. 為錢賣命毫無意義, 美國的生意人很多卻帶有改變世界的理想去賺錢, 從1個超然的idea派生出的財富, 到更超然的全數捐獻, 令人敬佩

    KLI

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  6. 可惜的是 香港有不少人被迫營營役役 只是為了賺取極微薄的薪水勉強養活家中老幼 休息時間不夠 與家人相聚的時光更少 積努成疾只可自嘆倒晦 醫療費? 溫飽也顧不上 死了僱主不會慰問亦不會感激您曾作出的貢獻 因已紿你市價每小時十數元 他們不願無止境的工作 然而無能為力 唯有發揮頂硬上的香港精神 這是患上癌症的社會!
    KT

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  7. I'm afraid what I can remember is as much as you do 'coz it was one of his btw talks. Now that you rekindle my curiosity, I so want to ask him about the author and the exact research topic!

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  8. Today, I chatted with my sister about this topic. The thing triggered us to discuss it is a Korean TV programme "Thank you". In the programme, the main actor gives up his job as CEO in Seoul for working as a ordinary doctor in a remote island. On the day when he is going to leave, he tells his mum that he finds his life meaningless to continue the present lifestyle. He just thinks that he is dying in the urban lifestyle. Then, my sister and I began to reflect on our attitude towards our daily life. For me, while doing revision, I just aimed to finish it but deeply, I know that I lost my soul in doing revision. Since life is so short, it would be better for one to enjoy every moment in life rather than pursuing the final outcome of the hard work.

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  9. 樓上的無名君:大概就是「活在當下」,一切已足吧!

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